I missed another day and today's post is later than scheduled... 😔
Whatever it is, I'm not going to be sad today because we move and we keep moving. Here's what has happened in the last two days. I have so much gist to share but I'll only share a bit.

Yesterday was Christmas Day!! The truth is that although I may come off as excited about Christmas if you've been following the documentary, you'll know that I wasn't really juiced about the whole thing. This is my 7th Christmas without my family and at this point in my life, as much as I love the Lord and I'm deeply grateful for the incarnation, I'm not really into the festivities.
After being away for so long, you tend to lose interest after a while or at least, it tones down.

When I first came here, we would have classes on Christmas Day and as much as I didn't like it, it gave me a reason to step out of my room and kind of inspired me to maybe go out. This year, we were given a holiday. I had made plans at first with my friend. We were going to go out. Guess what, we didn't. I was just glued to my bed and was having a good time talking with my friends and family.

My church had a service in the evening and I had the inspiration to dress up and decided to take a walk after. Another friend surprised me and bought me dinner. Fam! I was emoshonal.

PAUSE
I actually paused for a few minutes because I was wondering if I am supposed to be sharing all of this with you, especially on this series. I have pretty much turned it into just a daily diary session.
I don't think that it's bad sha and the truth is that the documentary of my victory over anxiety includes this too.

BACK TO THE GIST
So, I had a pretty good day yesterday. I was actually thinking to myself today how I have the privilege of getting to celebrate Christmas twice because Ukrainians celebrate Christmas on the 7th of January.

Yesterday ended well. I was full, both in my heart and in my stomach. Today, I had a class. It was the final day of Transplantology cycle. I absolutely enjoyed it especially because of the non-conventional way the teacher used. He made us use the Google Classroom app and he'd send assignments there and the like. I had to make a presentation in class today. Thinking back, I wish I had recorded the presentation but well, I didn't. Here's the presentation anyway.

I am smart. I am very intelligent. I have a great mental capacity. I am not limited by my environment. My flourishing isn't restricted by the local weather. My flourishing is from within. And because I have the Spirit of God in me, I always flourish. I know what to do by the Spirit of God. I have wisdom. 

I see solutions. I create ease!!!

I am intelligent. I understand things easily.

I know where I flourish and God's Spirit guides me to those places, to the riverside.

This is my story. I've really enjoyed this journey and sharing it with you is a form of accountability for me so thanks for being my accountability partner.

There's a battle in my mind. It is full of anxiety and untrue thoughts. This is a documentary on how I win.

See you tomorrow at 20:00 GMT+2

Today was okay. I did what I always do, I went to class and I slept. I am pretty much sleeping away my life at this point and yes, I am exaggerating. I'm learning to filter my feelings and how I want to express them. Sometimes, that fiery response that you want to give isn't just worth it. I know that they are triggering you but maybe it's a better idea to leave that space than to let them turn you into a fiery ball and make it look like you just escaped from hell.

The battle that I am currently fighting in my mind is hugely influenced by the holiday season. I really couldn't see it before but it's all starting to make sense now. It's mostly FOMO. I see people post things online... You know, I should clarify a bit, I see people, at home, in Nigeria, post things online. I see them spending time with family and I want that. I see my family spending time with themselves and I want that. I don't remember being this attached to holiday season or family but na so we see am.

It'll pass soon. Las las, by mid-January, everybody body go don come down.

Today's task was to write something. It's been a while since I found it this difficult to write. Maybe it's because I don't write poems as often as before. Anyway, this is what I came up with. What do you think?

I am a child of God. Do you know what that means? I am God's child. Do you know who God is? He is the creator of the universe, the one who set the laws of life in place. He is the one who is immutable and whom goodness is His nature. He is the just God who expresses Himself in love. He is my Father.

Girl! Do you know who's likeness you're made into? Whose image you bear? Do you know?

I'm not ordinary!

I am a child of God!

I walk in the consciousness of my identity always!!

So, irrespective of what life throws at me, I know who I am. I bear God's image. I have His spirit in me so, I act like Him!!!

Whew!!!!

I love this journey! Call me 'Victor'. oops! That's a guy's name, I think. Okay, call me 'Victory' or 'Victorious' or 'Victorious Awakening'.

There's a battle in my mind. It is full of anxiety and untrue thoughts. This is a documentary on how I win.

See you tomorrow at 20:00 GMT +2

Merry Christmas!!!!!

I wish you could hear the excitement in my voice or the lack of it...

I hope you are enjoying your day and celebrating Jesus.

I was at a carol service yesterday and I liked the illustration the preacher gave. You know, it's on your birthday that you receive the most calls and texts and love from people in different forms. During Christmas, we celebrate Jesus' birth and it's about this time that everyone wants to show Him how much we love and appreciate Him.

How about we don't wait till Christmas, what if we choose to celebrate Him every day?

Think about it!

On this Christmas, I wish you love and joy in abundance.

Jolly Holidays!!

While we're at it, lemme sing a Christmas song.

"Joy to the world

The Lord is come (born, not so sure which)

Let Earth receive her King

Let every heart

Prepare Him room

And Heaven and nature sing

And Heaven and nature sing

And Heaveeen and Heaaavenn and nature sing.

The Love of God is just so overwhelming. Sometimes we overlook it, take it for granted and just do what we want, however, we want. Well, as we celebrate Christmas, let's take some time to ponder on the love of God, accept it and show it forth to the people around us.

I saw this poster on Christian Memes
What do you y'all think?