I'm scared

So scared to stand up lest I fall

I'm scared that I when I take the first step I'll fail

I'm scared of the injuries that may probably come

I'm scared of the heart breaks that may follow.

I'm scared

So scared that you'll laugh at me when I talk

Not because I'm cracking jokes

But because you think I'm not good enough.

I'm scared to take the first step

I'm scared to let go of my anchor

I'm so scared

Life seems scary.

I'm scared that if I leave the brightness of today

Tomorrow may never come

I'm scared to let go of the hurt

Because I feel that it's all that I have.

I'm scared of the future

And scared of the past

I'm afraid of today

And everything that it has.

Behold! the great waves

And the high mountains.

But really, why sit here until I die?

If I perish, I perish!

At least I died trying.

I choose to take the scared steps forward

I choose to see beyond my fears

And although you may be laughing at me

I choose to see you laughing with me

I choose to see positive

Even when the negativity clouds my vision

I choose to do it afraid

And whatever happens, happens

I choose to be ME!

Gwen and I have been friends since forever! Errrrrm not really, but we've been friends for about 3 years. The truth is that she's been there for me through thick and thin. We've had lots of fun times together and I've had to help her out a couple of times when she had issues with other people.

Late last year, I made a new friend, her name is Jemima. I kinda feel like  I only make female friends but seriously who cares! (*whispering* because I really don't).  Jem is amazing. We have a lot in common. She even likes purple!

I started spending quite a lot of time with her, so much that I totally forgot about Gwen. Anyways, after a while I noticed that thing I had with Jem was almost an addiction. I really couldn't go a day without talking to her and I practically spent every second of my waking with her. Even when I was supposed to be studying, I found myself with her instead.

This had gone on for quite a while but I really just noticed it. I decided that I would have to consciously do the right thing at the right time. I am fully aware that spending time with her isn't wrong, but the problem is that she was beginning to get in the way of a lot of things in my life.

Hey! By the way, Gwen and Jem are my phones. Yea, I name my phones. And yes, I kinda felt like I was getting too addicted to my phone and I decided to spend some less time with her, ummm it.

One thing that is sure in life is that different times and stages, we would often have to make choices. Sometimes it going to be as easy as choosing between good and bad, some other times it wouldn't be. There'll be times where we would have to choose between two things that are seemingly good. At such times, we'll have to be careful to pick out that which is better.

Good stuff can be really attractive. It can be all dressed up that you get hooked up on it. Sometimes you could get really hooked up on the good that it blurs your vision. We have to be really careful that the good doesn't get in the way of the better.

My phones are really valuable to me. I think they are like my number company but because I want something more, I'm willing to let go of them to an extent.

What do you want achieve? What are goals have you set? What's standing in the way? Identify the good that's standing in the way of your better!

Be better!

I believe in YOU!!

#ItsKaydo